Unseen

Completely in touch

Every emotion is felt

Maybe too much

Everything makes sense

There’s no rhyme or reason for it

It just happened over time

But one thing is unchanging

It is always hidden

And there’s no winning in it

No silver lining at the end

There is only the most beautiful thing in the world

The one thing no one will ever get to see

Finding my way North

It was simple

The walls were down

The roads were clear

Nothing was in our way

Today was new

Today was different

Then tomorrow came

And everything was carried away

I miss the stars

I miss my north

I can’t live in tomorrow anymore

I’m going back

Back to the beginning

Before I fell apart
Back when I was yours

And you were mine

Like you mean it

They turn to me

To comfort them

To reassure them

To give them peace

They don’t realize what lies beneath

So close to the surface

If they stopped for a moment

And just looked at me

Maybe they could see

But they’ll never see

Because they don’t want to

They don’t want to see me broken

They don’t want to see me undone

So I keep smiling

I say it’s ok

And then I wait

Until they look away

Passing words

The room is still

There's dust everywhere

There was life here once

There may be again

The wind blows in

Lifting sheets from their place

The whirlwind surrounds me

I can almost feel them with my fingertips

I fill myself with words

I let the words pass through me

Words I can never say

Words I wish to hear

Words that will never linger here

Maybe it's ok

Maybe it's not supposed to make sense

As the words leave me

I disappear once again

Surrounding

Every detail captivates me

Feeling the sidewalk through my shoes

Glances of white light as the sun hits my eyes

The smell of grass after the rain

The wind passing through my fingers

It gives me peace

It keeps me sane

In this fleeting moment

I feel joy

And I get through another day

Fog

I lift my hands

And they disappear in front of me

I can barely see my feet

But I can’t stand still

I have to try

I walk for a minute

An hour

A day

An eternity

I keep walking

But I know

I can’t see past this

And I never will

You won’t see me

You won’t hear me

You will never feel me again

To you, I am lost

Forever

A place called Home

Here I share my thoughts

Here I share my dreams

It's a place for me

Where I'm not afraid of being sad

Where I'm not afraid of feeling lonely

In this place

I am whole and broken

In this place

I am joyful and sorrowing

In this place

I am safe and vulnerable

In this place

I am bare

I am nothing more than myself

I am with you

Here you see me

Here you are with me

In this place we built
Together

Brick by brick

Empty Sheets

I sit alone
On empty sheets

Waiting for words to come

I'm so close, I almost see them

But they don't come

There are no words

Only whispers

Whispers that taunt me

Whispers that haunt me

I look down

The sheets are soft

Smooth and fresh

Ready to be unleashed

But I only disappoint them

I have nothing to give

Words don’t settle here

And so I wait

And so I remain

One more day

Just another day

One more lie

One more smile

A smile that says

Everything is alright

There are no problems

There is no pain

And the promise of tomorrow awaits

But it’s not real

It’s just part of the deception

But it seems real

Real enough so it’s not questioned

Real enough so no one suspects

Only you know

Only you see

Nothing seems to fit

Nothing feels right

And nothing can be done to change it

One more smile

One more lie

One more day

Pouring

They drop
Tip-Toeing at first
Heard here and there
Seen in the asphalt
Between the creases
Staying is tempting
It's considered, only for a moment
Suddenly, it's surrounding
They drop heavily
Uncontrollably
It's suffocating
It's blinding
It's mortifying
It feels like the end
Until it finally becomes clear
It is inside
It always was