Dolls

It's a rare thing to behold
A connection richer than gold
The serenity that follows
When souls are no longer hollow

Some mouths may sour
Worry not for your mate
Even in the darkest hour
None will be unmade

Eternity is your treasure
Forever together
Through bonds unbroken
And words unspoken

My beautiful suffering

The days get more difficult

Time seems endless to those who wait

It keeps taking our innocence

There is no comfort in this constant pace

It’s not fair to those we involve

So there are rules I will not defy

But there is no paucity in my resolve

Just constraining rules I must abide by

I wish I could just flee

An escape is hard to come by

So I’m still waiting for you to find me

Hoping to say my last goodbye

Through the Shadows

How can you see truth

With them surrounding you?

It’s so unclear

Our words are drawn

And it all just happens in the dark

Gaps are running deep

We keep them out of reach

I feel you near

It makes me stop

And it all just happens in the dark

Seeing it unfold

Wondering what it’s for

The thought of you

It burns me up

And it all just happens in the dark

The rules are getting clear

There is no need to fear

Wait and see

Who you’ll become

And it all just happens in the dark

The first sign

I remember how much you tried

It was hard for you to stay

You didn’t tell me why

You couldn’t even look me in the eye

I didn’t see it at first

I didn’t want to

Once I figured it out

My shame washed away

It wasn’t my doing

I was the betrayed

As you say it everything makes sense

Your lips are heavy with regret

Your eyes fill me with forgiveness

And a teary smile spreads across my face

I realize as I feel my heart thumping

That I’m still looking forward to something

Wish I was there

I had a crazy idea

That I could do things differently

That our hearts don’t choose for us

Mind is stronger than fate

I can see another life

One where I’ve taken another path

You hold my hand

And I honestly smile back

I’ve known you forever

You saw me in the snow

I thought you were strong

And you didn’t prove me wrong

I think back and wonder

What have we done?

We ran towards each other

And everything fell apart

One choice

And we don’t get there

One choice

And we don’t reach

And if one day we meet again

We can find the end

Say no to the hurt

Say no to the pain

Nailed shut

There’s an emptiness that will not be filled

It deepens

Slowly

Strongly

Like a moment of stillness

We wait

And we wait

But that numbness won’t go away

How pretentiously we plan our escape

Cover our tracks when no one is there

Like we can outsmart them all

Until eventually

When we look in the mirror

We no longer recognize the person staring back

So we stare

And stare

And stare

Until we have enough practice

To pretend we don’t care

Madly Mine

My shy nature makes me tremble

My thoughts get crazy and senseless

I never know what I want

And people seem to always go on

But you saw me

And I changed my ways

You unknowingly brought out

The best version of me

With you

I’m outgoing

I’m optimistic

I’m joyful

With you

I’m strong

I’m confident

I love

Of course I’m scared

This is the part where I run away

But you love me anyways

Nothing else can make me stay