Just one bite

There’s a part of me that’s broken

It affects the way I think

The way I act

The way I feel

I don’t hate them

Not really

I wish I did

It would be so much easier than hating myself

For not fighting back

For letting them in

For letting myself darken

And be filled with shame and fear

I wait for time to cleanse me

But it still won’t heal

I don’t know who I am without them

And that scares me

Maybe I like the broken pieces

It gives me a reason to dread

A reason to stay safe

A way to remain